Ronda Rousey breaks her silence about the fight she lost against Holly Holm. The MMA star speaks up about her stunning and unexpected defeat, her injuries, her recovery process, her future plans and more.

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The 28-year-old suffered a shocking loss in her fight against 34-year-old Holly Holm at UFC 193 (video highlights below). The whole world saw Holm knock her out and become the new UFC bantamweight champion. That was a defeat that had social media buzzing for days afterwards with all manner of celebrities, public figures and fans weighing in. But until now, the one person who has not had her say about it is Rhonda Rousey herself.

She spoke about the brutal experience in an exclusive interview with ESPN the Magazine. She said of her recovery, ” “It might be three to six months before I can eat an apple, let alone take an impact.” She added, “I’m just really f—ing sad.”

For anyone who questions whether or not she will return, she was very clear on setting the record straight even as she lamented the experience. She went on to say, “I need to come back. I need to beat this chick. Who knows if I’m going to pop my teeth out or break my jaw or rip my lip open. I have to f—ing do it.”

She also shared her memories of the fight, saying, “I got hit in that first round. … I cut my lip open and knocked a couple of my teeth loose. I was out on my feet from the very beginning.”

Continuing, she added, “I wasn’t thinking clearly. I had that huge cut in my mouth and I just spit [the blood] out at my feet. Then they brought the bucket over and I’m like, ‘Why didn’t I spit it in the bucket?’ I never spit on the ground.”

“It was like a dumbed-down dreamy version of yourself making decisions. … I was just trying to shake myself out of it. I kept saying to myself, ‘You’re OK, keep fighting. You’re OK, keep fighting.'”

“I just feel so embarrassed. How I fought after that is such an embarrassing representation of myself. I wasn’t even f—ing there.”

She also spoke about what she did after the fight, saying, “I kind of just slept a lot and ate fast food…First I was so sick I couldn’t eat anything. Physically, my body was refusing its own failures. It was, like, sick of itself.”

She said of her future, “I guess it’s all going to be determined by what happens in the rematch. Everything is going to be determined by that. Either I’ll win and keep going or I won’t and I’ll be done with everything.”

You can see the full interview here and see pictures. It’s a classic ESPN the Magazine read, and must reading for fans of Ronda Rousey eagerly awaiting her next move, after losing the fight with Holly Holm.