Mariah Carey opens up about her split from husband Nick Cannon, the diss song ‘Infinity,’ the miscarriage she suffered, the difficulties of fame and more in a wide-ranging in-depth interview.

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The 45-year-old music icon spoke to the UK Daily Mail on many personal topics in a lengthy interview whose publication coincides with the opening of her much-anticipated residency, Mariah Carey’s #1’s at Caesars Palace in Las Vegas. The first of her shows kicked off to rave reviews.

Mariah Carey opened up about fame and its perils and said, “Stardom is a magical yet freakish situation at times. It’s a cliché but very true that at times you feel so alone even when you’re surrounded by so many people. Trust is not very easy for me at all. I want to be a trusting person but I’ve been bruised so many times – not to sound woe-is-me about my life.”

She went on to say, “I’m thankful for my fans who make up for the lack of closeness I feel to most people who start out as friends and ultimately take advantage of me. I’m a very loyal person and it takes a lot for me to actually un-friend someone.”

She said of the song, Infinity, which has been widely regarded as a Nick Cannon diss song with such lines as “Why you mad? / Talkin’ ’bout you’re mad / Could it be that you just lost the best you’ve ever had?”

She said of it, ‘Here’s the thing…I like to leave it open.’ She later added, ‘I wanted to laugh it off…But not everybody gets my jokes or humour.”

As such the song speaks for itself, with such stinging and defiant lines as “Boy, you actin’ so corny like Fritos / Wouldn’t have none of that without me though.” It’s clearly not a song of heartbreak and pain and sadness and loss, and on top of all that, drags in an iconic junk food to make the metaphor all the more vivid.

In fact, the song encapsulates what some have thought of the marriage all along; that it was not one of equals. Mariah Carey, of course, being not just famous and rich, but indeed one of the bestselling music artists of all time, and Nick Cannon, let’s say, not quite that far along in his respective career. And not to mention that 11-year age difference, as he was but 29 years old when he married her.

But for now, the song largely speaks for itself. Mariah Carey, in contrast had much more to say about how she is coping in the aftermath of the divorce filing and speaks of her concern about her four-year-old twins, Moroccan and Monroe. She said of them, “I don’t want them to see a mother who’s saying, “I’m going through this. I’m going through that.” They’re babies – innocents. They don’t have to see that yet – if ever. So I try to keep everything together because, in some instances, if you cry you’re not going to stop crying.’

She went on to speak of how she and Nick Cannon celebrated the holidays together for the sake of their twins. She said, ‘Christmas was a rough time for me personally but I got through it and you know what? It was for the kids. That was the whole thing. I have a song called Side Effects which goes, “I kept my tears inside because I knew if I started I’d keep crying for the rest of my life with you. I finally built up the strength to walk away, don’t regret it but I still live with the side effects.”’

Mariah Carey also spoke of years ago, and the miscarriage she suffered shortly after marrying Nick Cannon. She said, “It was huge. There are really no words and it’s difficult to talk about. That was the lowest point for me…I wasn’t sure why it happened. I was working on Touch My Body [a song from her 11th Album E=MC²] so I was very thin and working out a lot. I didn’t know you had to stop exercising and stop doing yoga when you’re pregnant. Nobody told me these things.”

She went on to speak about her second pregnancy, with her twins which, although successful, was not without its complications. It’s among the many topics she speaks of as the interview continues. A classic long read, but a must-read for fans of the diva. See the full interview here.