Amy Poehler has broken her silence on her divorce from Will Arnett. She also reveals her past cocaine and ecstasy drug use and more in her new memoir, ‘Yes Please.’ In sharing such personal struggles, the ‘Parks and Recreation’ star and ‘Saturday Night Live’ alum reveals the pain and vulnerability at variance with her bubbly public persona.

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The 43-year-old Amy Poehler has long had a tabloid-free existence as a celebrity and as a high-profile television star. She had not spoken about her divorce. Never given the typical interviews about her spit with former husband and fellow star Will Arnett after 10 years of marriage.

She has instead reserved such exposure for her own memoir, ‘Yes Please,’ and within those pages secrets are no more. In advance of the books publication, E!News has published some excerpts.

Amy Poehler writes in vivid and memorable prose of her divorce. In part, she says, “Imagine spreading everything you care about on a blanket and then tossing the whole thing up in the air. The process of divorce is about loading that blanket, throwing it up, watching it all spin, and worrying what stuff will break when it lands.”

She continues, “When you are a person going through a divorce you feel incredibly alone, yet you are constantly reminded by society of how frequently divorce happens and how common it has become. You aren’t allowed to feel special, but no one knows the specific ways you are in pain.”

She went on to speak of Will Arnett, saying of him, “I am proud of how my ex-husband Will and I have been taking care of our children. I am beyond grateful he is their father, and I don’t think a 10-year marriage constitutes failure.”

She also opened up about a subject we did not know to look for; past drug use. With characteristic wit, she titles that chapter, “Obligatory Drug Stories,” according to an excerpt published by The Mirror. She said, in part, “I tried cocaine, which I instantly loved but eventually hated. Cocaine is terrific if you want to hang out with people you don’t know very well and play ping-pong all night.”

And as for the aftermath and the rest of life, she said “it’s bad for almost everything else…the day after cocaine is rough.” She goes on to detail just how rough that rough is, revealing how she felt at a party on New Year’s Eve, celebrating with fellow members of the famed comedy troupe, the Upright Citizen’s Brigade. She describes it as a night in which they all “”danced and drank water and loved each other.” But come the morning after, she revealed, “”I also remember the next day when I thought I had no friends and I was so sad I wanted to sink into the carpet and permanently live there.”

It begs the question, how did she kick the habit. Of that she reveals how it was marriage to Will Arnett and motherhood that made the difference. She said, ” “How do you explain to a 4-and 6-year-old that you can’t play ‘Rescue Bots’ because you have to spend all day in bed eating Cape Cod potato chips and watching ‘The Bicycle Thief?’

In addressing the current state of her drug use, she appears to concede she still uses marijuana, saying, “I can’t perform, drive or write stoned, and therefore I smoke pot a lot less than I used to.”

Fortunately, for Amy Poehler neither drugs nor divorce have left her broken, and she displays within the pages, a resilience and a hard-won wisdom that are admirable. With or without fame — its upside and its downside — life’s struggles are no less struggles.

See more excerpts at E!News and The Mirror.