Nicole Scherzinger opened up about her struggle with bulimina in a cover story interview with ‘Cosmopolitan UK.’ She spoke of the terrible toll the eating disorder took upon her during her 20s even in the midst of her fame as frontwoman of the Pussycat Dolls.

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It was with the all-female ensemble Pussycat Dolls that Nicole Scherzinger rose to fame. As such she and her fellow members were known as much for their sexy dance moves and choreography as for their songs. Scherzinger was always famously fit and in shape in their daring costumes. In recent years she has been a judge on The X Factor UK.

But yet, there was a hidden side to the international fame which she opened up about in the interview with Cosmopolitan UK. She said, “Thinking about it I try not to well up… It is such a horrible paralyzing disease and it was such a dark time for me.” She went on to add, “That’s why I can empathize so much with people who have demons and voices in their heads, who aren’t nice to themselves. It robs you of living your life.”

She continued, saying, ”But you can recover and you can get rid of it forever. I did it and that’s why it’s so important for me to share my story.”

She reflected upon those years, telling the publication, “I felt so alone… but I made myself so alone. You hide it from the world, you isolate yourself. But you can beat it – do not give up because you’re so special and you’re meant for such great things.”

She also spoke about the toll that bulimia was taking upon her health, saying, ” “I had started losing my voice, I couldn’t sing at shows, and then I remember my manager finding me passed out on the floor in Malta or in the south of France. I thought, ‘I’m going to lose everything I love if I don’t love myself.’”

She went on to say, “One day when you feel like you’ve reached the end, you just say, ‘I’m not doing this anymore.’”

In reflecting upon those years, Scherzinger said, “It’s sad to see how I wasted my life. I had such a great life on the outside, the Dolls were on top of the world but I was miserable on the inside. I’m never letting that happen again; you only get one life – I was 27 only once.”

Her unsparing honesty and vivid retelling of her story goes a long way towards offering encouragement and comfort to others who are suffering with eating disorders and/or in various stages of recovery.

She also spoke on a variety of other topics including her new music as well as her on-again, off-again boyfriend Lewis Hamilton. She said of the state of their relationship, “Well it’s something crazy romantic. Relationships are hard and having to hold a long-distance relationship is even harder. It’s kudos to us for growing and trying – there’s so much love there. It’s just the distance, it’s not natural for anyone. But I’m good and I’m happy.”

You can see the cover image and more excerpts of the interview here.